It isn't going to turn out that way

 "It isn't going to turn out that way." is what my sweet husband tells me when something I haven't expected enters my life as invariably I think of what the worst case scenario would look like. Part of this habit stems from being right far too many times when I would have preferred to have been wrong - which isn't a comforting thought when I am in the midst of contemplating an unexpected change.

Received news yesterday that my day job and the team I work with will be phased out over the next few months. We are welcome to find other positions with the firm but our current work will be 'off-shored' to save some money for the company. In addition to that, our bonuses will be cut back after next month. This job is not my ideal and does not require too many of my skills to perform. But it does pay my bills and I would certainly miss that aspect of it if it were to end. It was what I thought initially to be a temporary position that I took on "for a few months only" when I was out of work and the economy started turning bad a few years ago and was grateful for it when it sustained me during the Recession. As the economy has recovered, I find myself increasingly aware that others in my age group are not hot commodities in the job market and many are starting up their own enterprises to compensate for the lack of jobs available. I would love that. I love starting new ventures. Of course I would need to have the wherewithal to start an enterprise but the prospect of that would be an exciting thing to consider if it was real. When first conceived, the 'Green Road' was to be a sustainable coffeehouse to be run with a very good friend. Other 'Green Road' project ideas came and went over the years until I settled on a 'Green Road Blog' for now. Maybe it's time to reconsider that along with the rest.

Given my extreme aversion to Change that I can't control, the irony that I have taken up the task of talking to others about the biggest Change to ever confront humankind is not lost on me at all. I feel so strongly though that this is something we all need to look at, that my needs are not even secondary - they are somewhere back there in the tertiary sector for this problem. I wish I were wrong about Climate Change and that the science was wrong. Very much wish that to be so. At the same time, am very much open to the possibilities that renewables, green technology and other unknown factors will turn this crisis around once we all start working on it together.

What do you do to remain calm in crisis? What do you do to not be so overwhelmed you can't think of your next step? Last night I dined with a good friend and we shared some laughs. I made a list of a few steps to take today as well as a list of what is going right in this situation and may prove useful to remember as I work out a plan. And then, I reread a good Nero Wolfe mystery as nothing distracts me more than a well-written story that makes me laugh.

And waking refreshed today, starting on my list of To-Do's to figure out where I will be employed come October.